Surreal.
That's the only word that comes to mind in recalling my experience of visiting the infamous concentration camp that is Auschwitz. Upon planning this trip almost a year ago, I remember thinking about the possibility of visiting this place, and the anxiety it brought up for me even then. I had been anticipating this day once we entered Eastern Europe, and finally, yesterday, it arrived. Terrified that fear and repulsion would overtake me once we entered the gates, I tentatively made my way to meet our English tour guide.
The words "Arbeit Macht Frei" (Work Makes You Free) on the gate framed the many brick buildings, where we wandered through artifacts, displays, and sites of horror. Double electrified-barbed wire fences lined the perimeter of the grounds. We witnessed the terrible living conditions of the slaves...too-crowded rooms, small prison cells, no comforts...let alone liveable situations.
Then came the piles and piles and piles of articles taken from the Jews upon their arrival to the death camp. Eye glasses, artificial limbs, hair brushes, clothes and luggage and kitchenware...for many were told that they were simply being moved to a new place...not that they would be killed upon arrival. When we passed the tiny clothes of babies and shoes of children, I could not bear it any longer and was overcome with tears.
I was also overwhelmed with emotion walking through the gas chamber and crematorium, knowing that many people were led there to believe they were merely going to be given a "disinfecting shower," when in fact they went there to die. Listening to stories of torture, killing, enslavery and imprisonment were horrendous to listen to, I can't begin to imagine experiencing it first hand.
From Auschwitz I, we took a bus to Auschwitz II, otherwise known as Birkenau. Here we saw the incredible vastness of the camp, and just how large this terrible operation was. Admist the horror, we did see a group of young Jewish men, arms wrapped around one another, singing, remembering, and honoring those lost. It was a very moving sight to behold.
While I could go on with details about concentration camps and WWII and other things we learned, I think I will leave off here. For me, this was undoubtedly one of the most difficult days on our trip. Although I already knew much about the concentration camps before our arrival, it was very powerful being there, and left me feeling quite discouraged and overwhelmed about how evil humanity can be.
I leave you with some images taken during our visit, as well as a poem written by Frantisek Bass, a boy who lived and died in Auschwitz, October 28, 1944.
I am a Jew and will be a Jew forever.
Even if I should die from hunger,
never will I submit.
I will always fight for my people,
on my honor.
I will never be ashamed of them;
I give my word.
I am proud of my people,
how dignified they are.
Even though I am oppressed,